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Love me when I feel nobody else does it, when all the dark clouds crowd above my head and follow me everywhere, when even hope is black and far away.
Love me when I am unfriendly and sarcastic, when I try to spread pain around me so I am no longer different from the rest of them.
Love me when I send you away, when my eyes tell you to go, even if my voice could never say it, when I lock myself deep and desperately need you to have a peak inside and save me, but I'm not saying it.
Love me when I trust you least and I pretend I could make it without you, when I use you as my punching bag just because you are the closest.
Love me when I feel I am slipping into the abyss but refuse to reach for your hand. Bombard me with love when I am wearing my armour and act defensively expecting ignorance.
Love me when I am unsure and aggressive for no reason, when I talk nonsense, make accusations and suppositions with no ground at all, when my logics seems berried in the ground with little chances of ever coming back.
Love me when I write and love me when I don't. Love me when I'm immature and irrational.
Love me when I desperately need a hug but I refuse to ask for it. And love me when I steal that hug without considering the consequences.
Love me when I am unlovable, and if I get no better, say it and show it. Because if you love me then, when I need it the most, I will eventually learn that I deserve it and little by little I will stop being unlovable ever again.
